Whenever I felt a little bit emotional, I'll feel like writing. To express my emotions on this particular site. To release the stress, anger and dissapointment.

And a lot of times,

Whenever I felt like writing, I tried to stop myself. Because somehow deep down inside, I felt wrong. These emotions, sometimes were beyond my control. And a lot of times I felt they were influenced by the shaytan. 

And a lot of times,

I tried to calm myself down. Most of the times, these feelings comes from the people around me. They do things that made me think, a lot. Questions left unanswered and I have nobody to ask to.  Somebody whom I really think can understand how I feel.

And a lot of times,

I told myself. Why am I viewing this life on the negative side of the spectrum? Whereas a lot of great things had happened ever since the day I was born. The people around me, their everlasting unconditional love. What more can i ask.

And a lot of times,

I felt something is not right.